a little of this, a little of that…

I love blogging. But I put together this whole blog look, and immediately wanted to change it. I think I was overly ambitious and wanted something a little different and memorable. Well, I changed my mind (I’m known to do that) and decided to get a new blog done that is a cleaner, more classic look. Easier to read and more focus on the pictures – not the blog. Because honestly, isn’t that what this whole thing is about? So I’m postponing entering any new pictures until the new blog is ready – so they can be properly displayed. I’m a perfectionist, and I don’t want to show something I’m not 100% happy with.

Down the line, I imagine I’ll want to change my website layout as well – I have some cool ideas and I definitely want to work on that in future months.

On the homefront, our new house is nearly complete and we should be closing on July 8. Today, we met with a friend of ours who is an interior designer to get together our color ideas. I’m really excited about what we have planned, and am looking forward to moving.

Amanda, Ramsey and I; Circa 2000 at a party in college.
Amanda, Ramsey and I; Circa 2000 at a party in college.

More seriously, I’ve been a bit upside down in the last 24 hours after hearing of a close friend of mine who passed away yesterday morning. Ramsey Gergis passed away Thursday night of heart failure at the age of 26. He was such an amazing person, and truly helped me to survive my 4 years at college. He had an incredible sense of humor and if there’s one thing I remember about him more than anything else – it was his hugs. I don’t know who wouldn’t have gotten lost in his big arms. He made me laugh, he made me feel safe, and he always made me feel like I mattered. Even though we lost touch for a few years after college, I had the opportunity to reconnect with him on Facebook in the last year, and I’m so grateful that I was given that chance. It’s heartbreaking that it’s so easy to lose touch with people, close friends even – and I don’t think I ever gave it a second thought until I no longer had the chance to have him here. I miss him, even more so because we had lost touch until recently, and I was devastated to hear of his passing.  The outpouring of love I’ve seen on his Facebook page shows me what an impact he had made on so many people in his short life.

I’m hoping that by writing this, I can release some of the pain that I feel. I woke up with tears in my eyes. I just feel a little lost, out of sorts, and sad. It’s been a long time since I’ve just been sad. Not angry, or hurt – frustrated or anxious. I just feel sad.

I am beyond blessed to have had him be a part of my life. I hope he’s not wreaking too much havoc up there.

All my love, Ramsey.